Yesterday was another day for me, but somehow something made it really special. Why so? Because this is the day I have been looking forward to since 1st semester. The day of the enrollment for 2nd semester. I barely slept the night before.
So aloha everybody, I started my day way ahead than anybody else. I woke up at around 3am. It was as if my eyes were automatic. All of my things were ready since the day before; from my clothes til my bags. Oh yes darling, this is my day!
I prepared myself that this will be a very long day at Manila. So I freshened myself up and was on the way at around 5:30am. I was able to grab a lapse of rest during my way going there.
I arrived there at exactly 6:30am, but I was so shocked to see many people eagerly waiting outside the gates. The school usually opens at 7:00am ,you see. All I need was to pay the down payment for my tuition fee, white form for the list of my subjects and the assessment form. I anticipated that having to do all this things will make me stay at school the whole day. But I was able to do it all in enough time and finished it early, past 10:00am i guess?
Somehow, I managed to get an unexpected subject in addition to my preference. I am starting to wonder if I will get another one during the inclusion next week. Not bad, eh? At least, I will have my loads lighter when I step to the next level; hopefully.
I am really looking forward to this 2nd semester. Time to study, study and study. :)
After all, I have a lot of catching up to do and a retention to reach. :p
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
Passion to Music
During my childhood days, I didn't have enough idea about music. Hence, I know for myself I was doing poorly on my music classes during primary education. But I do love music in my own little ways. I was more of interested to reading and writing, very well admitted; up to this very moment.
Things change, neither am I. It may come up to be funny but having to hear a piece of Franz Schubert made me realize that such musical instruments are capable of doing such beautiful sounds. :)
Therefore I am proud to say that I love music from the bottom of my heart and it is etched to my soul. =) I may not be well updated regarding modern music, hence I appreciate it when I hear it on the radio. However, my heart has more room for classical music and its musicians.
I admire the following musicians:
•Franz Schubert
•Sarah Chang
•Johanne Brahms
•Kreisler
•Mozart
•Beethoven
•Vitali
•Pachebel
•Ravel
There are many and many musicians to be named, these are the few that caught my attention that their music keeps on burning in my heart. :)
Things change, neither am I. It may come up to be funny but having to hear a piece of Franz Schubert made me realize that such musical instruments are capable of doing such beautiful sounds. :)
Therefore I am proud to say that I love music from the bottom of my heart and it is etched to my soul. =) I may not be well updated regarding modern music, hence I appreciate it when I hear it on the radio. However, my heart has more room for classical music and its musicians.
I admire the following musicians:
•Franz Schubert
•Sarah Chang
•Johanne Brahms
•Kreisler
•Mozart
•Beethoven
•Vitali
•Pachebel
•Ravel
There are many and many musicians to be named, these are the few that caught my attention that their music keeps on burning in my heart. :)
Friday, October 23, 2009
My message to my Baby..
I really don't know what am going to say to you. Yes, you were every inch of annoyance to me recently due to your persistence for me to change. Hence I really can't and I don't want to understand why so persistent in making me change. Geez, my parents and my clan reared me to be like this. Why can't you accept it? Are you really on a want to make me another person? A person who is according to your want and need is perfectly okay?
Don't make me blame your ex for everything. Having her irritating face on your cellphone as a signature, who wouldn't get angry? I hate her to the bits. Damn it all, I somehow feel that her presence is still present in every step of our relationship. I want her out of us. Out of my life. Is that so hard to achieve? >_<
About the cellphone issue, I honestly asked you if we are going to minimize your texting habits. I agreed, didn't I? So what's up? I managed to ask "pabigat na ba ako?". Why? Know why, you seem to be complaining about it and your bill wasn't that big way back before. Who's fault is it now? Come on, tell me. Isn't it mine? Hahahhaa! Then I fell asleep. Then it seemed you overreacted and took it badly. You began to pester me with so much that the issue was repeated and repeated. Who wouldn't get irritated with that?
Why not ask yourself first before putting me in to much pressure. >< Don't make me grow and change into a person that easily. You can't magic me like that easily. Change comes in a step-by-step process. Stop demanding to me like that. You know, how bad my temper is. You hit my temper so bad that I was able to say such "hurtful" words, so as to speak. If it pained you so bad, fine am sorry. Gggrrr. Look, I really don't mean you so much pain. But seeing you so eager to make me as an eager person. It seems like you are going to stab me with a knife. Geez.
Somehow, I haven't put everything here. But I guess this is the only thing I need to say. Even if I hate to this, guess I must do this. I apologize for hurting your sensitive heart for the desire to make you shut up. I really love you so much and sorry also for doubting you, I do believe you. Look, am really sorry. :(
Don't make me blame your ex for everything. Having her irritating face on your cellphone as a signature, who wouldn't get angry? I hate her to the bits. Damn it all, I somehow feel that her presence is still present in every step of our relationship. I want her out of us. Out of my life. Is that so hard to achieve? >_<
About the cellphone issue, I honestly asked you if we are going to minimize your texting habits. I agreed, didn't I? So what's up? I managed to ask "pabigat na ba ako?". Why? Know why, you seem to be complaining about it and your bill wasn't that big way back before. Who's fault is it now? Come on, tell me. Isn't it mine? Hahahhaa! Then I fell asleep. Then it seemed you overreacted and took it badly. You began to pester me with so much that the issue was repeated and repeated. Who wouldn't get irritated with that?
Why not ask yourself first before putting me in to much pressure. >< Don't make me grow and change into a person that easily. You can't magic me like that easily. Change comes in a step-by-step process. Stop demanding to me like that. You know, how bad my temper is. You hit my temper so bad that I was able to say such "hurtful" words, so as to speak. If it pained you so bad, fine am sorry. Gggrrr. Look, I really don't mean you so much pain. But seeing you so eager to make me as an eager person. It seems like you are going to stab me with a knife. Geez.
Somehow, I haven't put everything here. But I guess this is the only thing I need to say. Even if I hate to this, guess I must do this. I apologize for hurting your sensitive heart for the desire to make you shut up. I really love you so much and sorry also for doubting you, I do believe you. Look, am really sorry. :(
Passing the 1st semester
Well the 1st semester just recently ended, it had been a hell for me. :(
This morning, I was able to see my grades online. Well yes, the grades are now encoded. I am so happy. Including my math, which was I could say a merciful act, had passed. Woot.
I passed the 4 subjects I enrolled. I could enroll for the 2nd semester with out worrying so much. :) Thank God!
-Ayie
This morning, I was able to see my grades online. Well yes, the grades are now encoded. I am so happy. Including my math, which was I could say a merciful act, had passed. Woot.
I passed the 4 subjects I enrolled. I could enroll for the 2nd semester with out worrying so much. :) Thank God!
-Ayie
Just for you
eto, mabuti pa siguro kung dito ko ibbuhos lahat ng gusto kong sabihin sau.
1.as ive said. kung d ka naaapektuhan I wont even bother. I like you for who you are and what you are. ayaw kong nakkita kang nahihirapan. that's why I did that. kasi ikaw mismo ang nagpapahirap sa sarili mo.
2.wag mo ako i-generalize.
3.sana lang(ilang beses ko na to inulit) makinig ka sa sinasabi ng ibang tao.
4.you are always taking it to the extreme. ang sabi ko lng nmn ay bawas-bawasan ang pagtxt. hindi ibig sabihin nun d na magttxt.
5.nkakasama ka ng loob lalo na nung sinabi mo na "get lost" "I dont need your lies" "get the hell out of my life"(bka mammisinterpret mo nanaman toh), when all I did was being concerened. sana sa susunod bago mo ako pagsalitaan ng ganyan, alamin mo muna ako magging reaction ko.
6.I was trying not to "kunsinti" you.
7.Bringing that ex topic? bakit mo niraise yang topic na yan? "All you want is your ex". What the hell?
eto po tanddan mo. andito ako para sayo. we are supposed to guide each other on what's right or wrong.
I'll say it once more. Sana pagisipan mo mga sinabi mo sa akin.
alam mo kung gaano kita kamahal(I know what you're thinking while reading this, "LIES"). yan ang totoo. Think what you want to think, hear what you want to hear, see what you want to see, and feel what you want to feel.
Do what you think is right. d ako aangal. PROMISE.
I love you so much.(THIS IS NOT FLATTERY)
marami pa ako gustong sabihin, pero kilala mo ako. Im not good at words. so eto lng yung ssabihin ko. hanggang dito lng po.
-Hess
1.as ive said. kung d ka naaapektuhan I wont even bother. I like you for who you are and what you are. ayaw kong nakkita kang nahihirapan. that's why I did that. kasi ikaw mismo ang nagpapahirap sa sarili mo.
2.wag mo ako i-generalize.
3.sana lang(ilang beses ko na to inulit) makinig ka sa sinasabi ng ibang tao.
4.you are always taking it to the extreme. ang sabi ko lng nmn ay bawas-bawasan ang pagtxt. hindi ibig sabihin nun d na magttxt.
5.nkakasama ka ng loob lalo na nung sinabi mo na "get lost" "I dont need your lies" "get the hell out of my life"(bka mammisinterpret mo nanaman toh), when all I did was being concerened. sana sa susunod bago mo ako pagsalitaan ng ganyan, alamin mo muna ako magging reaction ko.
6.I was trying not to "kunsinti" you.
7.Bringing that ex topic? bakit mo niraise yang topic na yan? "All you want is your ex". What the hell?
eto po tanddan mo. andito ako para sayo. we are supposed to guide each other on what's right or wrong.
I'll say it once more. Sana pagisipan mo mga sinabi mo sa akin.
alam mo kung gaano kita kamahal(I know what you're thinking while reading this, "LIES"). yan ang totoo. Think what you want to think, hear what you want to hear, see what you want to see, and feel what you want to feel.
Do what you think is right. d ako aangal. PROMISE.
I love you so much.(THIS IS NOT FLATTERY)
marami pa ako gustong sabihin, pero kilala mo ako. Im not good at words. so eto lng yung ssabihin ko. hanggang dito lng po.
-Hess
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Rant rant rant rant and more rant
Ok ok. So kakatapos ko lng kumain ng hapunan. Sisimulan ko na ang pagrrant ko.
Here it goes.
After ko maligo kanina umaga umandar sinusitis ko. Pak! ala na akong gamot. Kelangan tiisin. Yea, habang masakit ang ulo at nkaharap sa pc nagaantay kay papa kasi sabi nya ihahatid nya raw ako. Pero anong oras na? 9.00am na, 9.00am pasok ko. WTF. aga aga nakaka highblood.
Well anyway, pagdating ko ng work late na ako ng 25mins at sobrang inis na. Nagrrant pa ako sa baby ko and msama na pakiramdam ko(parang may lagnat na). Sorry by. >.< It was about lunch time naghang ang phone ko. !"%£^$*%) ilang oras din bago naaus. pero nung naaus na sobrang bagal naman. dalawang beses lng ako nka pagtext. after nun naghang ulit. well hanggang ngaun d ko pa sya nagagamit. Sarap itapon e.
Habang d ko magamit ang phone ko, there was this announcement na ang training ni papa sa thursday ay namove na move from 9.30am to 8.00am. I called him agad gamit landline. Sino d mappikon, ikaw tatanungin bakit namove sabay taas ng boses? abay malay ko jan. sinabi lng sakin na ipass sa kanya ang msg.
Hayyyyss..
Then ayun malapit na ako umuwi. I phoned home again. sabi ko papasundo ako 8.10pm kasi msma pakiramdam ko at ayaw ko na magcommute. At sabi ko pa lalabas na ako agad kasi ako na ang last na tao dito. kelangan ko maglock. Ayun lumabas na nga ako, erk malamig at umaambon. 8.15 na asan na sya? @.@ 8.30 na nung dumating. gggggggggrrrrrrrr.
Eto ako ngaun nagttype ng blog na to, mejo magulo isip, may lagnat at sore throat at d na mkapagsalita. Hanggang ngaun d ko pa ayus ang phone ko. Bahala na. Kung ayaw nya maayus bahala sya. Pikon na ako.
nights for now.
yun lng po.
-Hess
Here it goes.
After ko maligo kanina umaga umandar sinusitis ko. Pak! ala na akong gamot. Kelangan tiisin. Yea, habang masakit ang ulo at nkaharap sa pc nagaantay kay papa kasi sabi nya ihahatid nya raw ako. Pero anong oras na? 9.00am na, 9.00am pasok ko. WTF. aga aga nakaka highblood.
Well anyway, pagdating ko ng work late na ako ng 25mins at sobrang inis na. Nagrrant pa ako sa baby ko and msama na pakiramdam ko(parang may lagnat na). Sorry by. >.< It was about lunch time naghang ang phone ko. !"%£^$*%) ilang oras din bago naaus. pero nung naaus na sobrang bagal naman. dalawang beses lng ako nka pagtext. after nun naghang ulit. well hanggang ngaun d ko pa sya nagagamit. Sarap itapon e.
Habang d ko magamit ang phone ko, there was this announcement na ang training ni papa sa thursday ay namove na move from 9.30am to 8.00am. I called him agad gamit landline. Sino d mappikon, ikaw tatanungin bakit namove sabay taas ng boses? abay malay ko jan. sinabi lng sakin na ipass sa kanya ang msg.
Hayyyyss..
Then ayun malapit na ako umuwi. I phoned home again. sabi ko papasundo ako 8.10pm kasi msma pakiramdam ko at ayaw ko na magcommute. At sabi ko pa lalabas na ako agad kasi ako na ang last na tao dito. kelangan ko maglock. Ayun lumabas na nga ako, erk malamig at umaambon. 8.15 na asan na sya? @.@ 8.30 na nung dumating. gggggggggrrrrrrrr.
Eto ako ngaun nagttype ng blog na to, mejo magulo isip, may lagnat at sore throat at d na mkapagsalita. Hanggang ngaun d ko pa ayus ang phone ko. Bahala na. Kung ayaw nya maayus bahala sya. Pikon na ako.
nights for now.
yun lng po.
-Hess
Monday, October 19, 2009
Hershey, I will miss you.. :(
Just last month, my pet Labrador was given away by my mom. Sadly, we can't do anything for her anymore. The said dog just started to refuse to eat and drink anything. :(
It's a really sad thing for us. The dog's name is Hershey. She is a less than a year dog which we found looking outside our bakery on that faithful day of June 30.
My dad was so delighted to see the dog, that he considered Hershey as a gift for his birthday since it was his birthday that day. The dog was a kind dog. She was well-trained and highly amusing. Where can you find a dog that sits on a white chair like a man, and eagerly watches the television. The dog even knows how to eat bananas and bread. What a sweet dog she is.
However, one day after she was able to kill a cat after chasing it. She just fell ill. She just refused to eat anything at first. Then she doesn't like to move at all. Soon, the lively dog we knew, evolved into a sadly and weak dog. :(
Oh Hershey, how we wish we were able to do something for you, but we were forced to give you away. :( Now I wish you are okay now and happy with you're new owner. >_<
I have few pictures of the sick Hershey here. :(
It's a really sad thing for us. The dog's name is Hershey. She is a less than a year dog which we found looking outside our bakery on that faithful day of June 30.
My dad was so delighted to see the dog, that he considered Hershey as a gift for his birthday since it was his birthday that day. The dog was a kind dog. She was well-trained and highly amusing. Where can you find a dog that sits on a white chair like a man, and eagerly watches the television. The dog even knows how to eat bananas and bread. What a sweet dog she is.
However, one day after she was able to kill a cat after chasing it. She just fell ill. She just refused to eat anything at first. Then she doesn't like to move at all. Soon, the lively dog we knew, evolved into a sadly and weak dog. :(
Oh Hershey, how we wish we were able to do something for you, but we were forced to give you away. :( Now I wish you are okay now and happy with you're new owner. >_<
I have few pictures of the sick Hershey here. :(
The Road to Development
Somehow I start to question the road to development as I pass through familiar roads in our neighborhood in which I had grown up a long time ago. I start to wonder if the room for development involves so much sacrifice like removal of trees, putting soil on water areas. I start to question things; Is development meant to be so harsh that it needs to involve death and removal of other living things. They may not have voices to express there protest in such human activities; but we should be responsible enough to think of them. That there are other living things that reside on Mother Earth aside from us. I am not against development of rural areas to become urban areas. This is just a point of view of a person that misses the area where she used to walk by.
-Ayie
PS.
Here are some pictures that I took on that area. Pardon my thoughts about this. :)
-Ayie
PS.
Here are some pictures that I took on that area. Pardon my thoughts about this. :)
Friday, October 16, 2009
Waking up on the wrong side of the bed,
This morning doesn't seem right at all. Maybe this whole day isn't right. I dunno why but shit! Something feels wrong today. Am not really in the mood today and am having the itch of irritation in my veins that has really been messing up the whole me. Well, I don't know. Stop questioning me what is wrong.
If you think you're the reason why am pissed off today, you will stand corrected. Hmm, I understand what you are undergoing through. So stop making of an issue here. /swt
-Ayie
If you think you're the reason why am pissed off today, you will stand corrected. Hmm, I understand what you are undergoing through. So stop making of an issue here. /swt
-Ayie
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Names, names and more names (Part 1)
Leslierri Mishelle Ryle
Mishael Kiella Riz
Rieshalle Lina Lorielle
Bryn Lory Zaira
Charlie Lior Medvin
Doriel Leveinne Mish
Leslerielle Jeremiah Mikhaela
Denishe Ange Hei
Jeremiah Kai
Lumiale Mikhaela
Adrianne Mikaii Lhei
Marcel Anna Theresse
Reilyn Amiliyah Esh
Reira Einjhel Ansley
Zane Crowley
Mishael Kiella Riz
Rieshalle Lina Lorielle
Bryn Lory Zaira
Charlie Lior Medvin
Doriel Leveinne Mish
Leslerielle Jeremiah Mikhaela
Denishe Ange Hei
Jeremiah Kai
Lumiale Mikhaela
Adrianne Mikaii Lhei
Marcel Anna Theresse
Reilyn Amiliyah Esh
Reira Einjhel Ansley
Zane Crowley
Monday, October 12, 2009
I am so happy that you came into my life. You made me realize that life is worthwhile. I do love you so much. :) I wish I am there with you and whisper to you that I do love you. Even a single moment is not enough to make you feel how important you are to me. I love you so much Mr. Hessler Gerard Minel. <3
You are my love. My life and my everything. :)
You are my love. My life and my everything. :)
Tagalog Poems II
As I managed to get hold of poems from my high school days maybe it ain't bad to share them here.
*Pagkakasala bang umibig sa Isang Kaibigan?*
Alam na ako'y nagkasala
Di matanggal sa alaala
SA tulad kong nasasakdal
Sa pag-irog sa kaibigan
Bakit ganito ang naramdaman?
Sa aking matalik na kaibigan
Bawat kilos'y minamanmanan
Inaabangan ng pusong sumuko
Pilit ko mang aminin
Ito'y isang pagkakasala
Na nakakabit sa alaala
Sa tagal ng pinagsamahan
Sa bawat pagtanggi
Isipa'y nagwawagi
Sa pusong sutil
Damdamin ay kinikitil
Pusong manhid na
Sa sakit na dinadanas
Madaming taong nakapuna
Sa sakit na iniindya
Damdaming ito'y di mababaw
Siyang nagsilbing tanglaw
Sa buhay na madilim
at panay dusa lamang.
*Kasalanan bang Magmahal?*
Kasalanan bang magmahal?
Nang wagas at tapat
Para sa puso'y nararapat
Ito'y aking tanging dasal
Dalangin na tumutulong
Sa pag-abot ng pangarap
Upang makaranas ng sarap
Sa isang matiyagang pagsulong
Pagsulong na ito'y daan
Sa masigasig na pagtupad
Na sa kahit anung paraan
Sa pangarap na mataas
Kung ako man ay mali
Na sa tulad mo'y umibig
Di ko man talagang ibig
Damdamin ko'y itatali
Pag ito'y di mo tanggap
Ako'y hayaan na
Ika'y mahalin at ipalasap
Pag-irog na malalim at wagas na
Dahil sa pusong 'di matuto
Di nawawaglit na di ito susuko
Damdaming nagpapagulo ng isip ko
Dapat ito'y matanto
Sa sarili'y aking matanto
Puso'y dapat wala ka na
Oh, sa dinami dami ng sana
Puso'y dapat matuto na
Makaramdam man ng takot
Sa damdaming sangkot
Ito'y dapat maintindihan
Lalo matutunan.
Pero sa ngayon
Hayaan nang magmahal
Pakiusap sa ibig ay umayon
Pagkat ito'y aking dalangin
Kung sa'yo man ay kaibigan o kapatid
Akin rin mababatid
Sa damdaming aking pinagdadaanan
Wla man kahihinatnan.
*Wala*
Bakit mo nagawa
Bagay na di kaibig-ibig
Wala ka bang awa
Sa aking pag-ibig?
Sa paglipas ng panahon
Bawat pagbagsak ng dahon
Para sa'yo nagpakatatag
Nanatiling tapat
Umiwas sa tukso
Pagkat tapat sa sumpaan
Tayo'y magmamahalan
Wagas at habang buhay
Ngunit bakit mo ginawa?
Bagay na sadya at walang awa
Ika'y nagpadala sa tukso
Paano na aking puso?
Ano pa ang mapapala natin?
Sumpaan iyo'y binalewala
Dahil sa tukso ika'y nagpadala
Lahat lahat ay nauwi sa WALA!
*Pagkakasala bang umibig sa Isang Kaibigan?*
Alam na ako'y nagkasala
Di matanggal sa alaala
SA tulad kong nasasakdal
Sa pag-irog sa kaibigan
Bakit ganito ang naramdaman?
Sa aking matalik na kaibigan
Bawat kilos'y minamanmanan
Inaabangan ng pusong sumuko
Pilit ko mang aminin
Ito'y isang pagkakasala
Na nakakabit sa alaala
Sa tagal ng pinagsamahan
Sa bawat pagtanggi
Isipa'y nagwawagi
Sa pusong sutil
Damdamin ay kinikitil
Pusong manhid na
Sa sakit na dinadanas
Madaming taong nakapuna
Sa sakit na iniindya
Damdaming ito'y di mababaw
Siyang nagsilbing tanglaw
Sa buhay na madilim
at panay dusa lamang.
*Kasalanan bang Magmahal?*
Kasalanan bang magmahal?
Nang wagas at tapat
Para sa puso'y nararapat
Ito'y aking tanging dasal
Dalangin na tumutulong
Sa pag-abot ng pangarap
Upang makaranas ng sarap
Sa isang matiyagang pagsulong
Pagsulong na ito'y daan
Sa masigasig na pagtupad
Na sa kahit anung paraan
Sa pangarap na mataas
Kung ako man ay mali
Na sa tulad mo'y umibig
Di ko man talagang ibig
Damdamin ko'y itatali
Pag ito'y di mo tanggap
Ako'y hayaan na
Ika'y mahalin at ipalasap
Pag-irog na malalim at wagas na
Dahil sa pusong 'di matuto
Di nawawaglit na di ito susuko
Damdaming nagpapagulo ng isip ko
Dapat ito'y matanto
Sa sarili'y aking matanto
Puso'y dapat wala ka na
Oh, sa dinami dami ng sana
Puso'y dapat matuto na
Makaramdam man ng takot
Sa damdaming sangkot
Ito'y dapat maintindihan
Lalo matutunan.
Pero sa ngayon
Hayaan nang magmahal
Pakiusap sa ibig ay umayon
Pagkat ito'y aking dalangin
Kung sa'yo man ay kaibigan o kapatid
Akin rin mababatid
Sa damdaming aking pinagdadaanan
Wla man kahihinatnan.
*Wala*
Bakit mo nagawa
Bagay na di kaibig-ibig
Wala ka bang awa
Sa aking pag-ibig?
Sa paglipas ng panahon
Bawat pagbagsak ng dahon
Para sa'yo nagpakatatag
Nanatiling tapat
Umiwas sa tukso
Pagkat tapat sa sumpaan
Tayo'y magmamahalan
Wagas at habang buhay
Ngunit bakit mo ginawa?
Bagay na sadya at walang awa
Ika'y nagpadala sa tukso
Paano na aking puso?
Ano pa ang mapapala natin?
Sumpaan iyo'y binalewala
Dahil sa tukso ika'y nagpadala
Lahat lahat ay nauwi sa WALA!
Friday, October 9, 2009
Im really sorry for yesterday. T.T
When it rains it reminds me of you. Although 6679 miles away is so far I still always walk outside in the rain and kiss it just for you. It never fails me. The rain will always come and I'll always love you. Next time you see a storm on the horizon please don't fear it's just heaven doing me the favor of taking you my kiss. Walk outside and kiss the rain whenever you need me.
-Hess
-Hess
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
For my By. :)
By, alam mo so far. Sa mga times na hindi tayo magksma, eto ung araw na pinaka d best. :)
wanna know why?. Coz nung pagtulog ko kanina, last thing I heard was your voice and then waking up again sa boses mo. And in between I was dreaming about you and me together. I just want you to know that I love you so much. I never knew that I could love the way I love you. You are my everything. I love you!. :*
-Hess
wanna know why?. Coz nung pagtulog ko kanina, last thing I heard was your voice and then waking up again sa boses mo. And in between I was dreaming about you and me together. I just want you to know that I love you so much. I never knew that I could love the way I love you. You are my everything. I love you!. :*
-Hess
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Emotional Poems *
Other poems found and was written during my high school days.
* Bakit? *
Bakit kailangang matapos
Relasyong gumagapos
Sa dalawang taong magsing-irog
Tila walang makakasira
Relasyong pagkaganda-ganda
Wala kang maipipintas pa
Ako ba'y nananaginip pa?
Sana ito'y magtagal pa.
Ngunit bakit nagkaganito?
Relasyong aking pangarap
Bigla na lang naging bato
Nabasag aking pangarap
Relasyon natin sadyang sayang
Ako ba'y nagkulang?
Puso't isipan ay nanghihinayang
Sa mapait na kinasapitan.
* Saan Nagkamali? *
Anong nangyari?
Sa iyong pangako
Relasyon natin ay nayari
Pangako mo'y napako
May nagawa bang mali
Bagay na hindi mo ibig
Tila ba'y napakadali
Mawala ang iyong pag-ibig
Saan ako nagkamali?
Para mangyari ito
Koneksyong sa atin ay tumatali
Bigla na lamang mababali
Sa iyo ba'y nagkasala
Ano ba ang nagawa?
Para mo nang awa
Bakit pag-ibig'y biglang nawala?
Aking mga pagkakamali
Sana'y ako'y patawarin
PAgkat puso'y sa'yo nakatali
Mawalay sa iyo'y aking ikakalumbay.
-Ayie
* Bakit? *
Bakit kailangang matapos
Relasyong gumagapos
Sa dalawang taong magsing-irog
Tila walang makakasira
Relasyong pagkaganda-ganda
Wala kang maipipintas pa
Ako ba'y nananaginip pa?
Sana ito'y magtagal pa.
Ngunit bakit nagkaganito?
Relasyong aking pangarap
Bigla na lang naging bato
Nabasag aking pangarap
Relasyon natin sadyang sayang
Ako ba'y nagkulang?
Puso't isipan ay nanghihinayang
Sa mapait na kinasapitan.
* Saan Nagkamali? *
Anong nangyari?
Sa iyong pangako
Relasyon natin ay nayari
Pangako mo'y napako
May nagawa bang mali
Bagay na hindi mo ibig
Tila ba'y napakadali
Mawala ang iyong pag-ibig
Saan ako nagkamali?
Para mangyari ito
Koneksyong sa atin ay tumatali
Bigla na lamang mababali
Sa iyo ba'y nagkasala
Ano ba ang nagawa?
Para mo nang awa
Bakit pag-ibig'y biglang nawala?
Aking mga pagkakamali
Sana'y ako'y patawarin
PAgkat puso'y sa'yo nakatali
Mawalay sa iyo'y aking ikakalumbay.
-Ayie
The Odd Feeling of Laziness..
It's been a while, I really don't know why I am feeling this. All I know is that I feel damn lazy this week. Somehow, I don't look forward in going to school, despite the fact that its only a week and a half before the term says adieu. Blame the stupid fcuking suspension of the classes that's why am feeling damn lazy now. It's really irritating to be sitting in front of this medium-sized box and spilling the shit I am feeling right now. I am so pissed off now.
Yes, I appreciate my life, my education, and my status of being lucky. But I'm just off the hook today and doesn't even want to do a thing. I know I want to do only one thing today and that is to sleep the hell throughout.
I'm sorry baby love if I curse this time. I really can't help it.. :(
-Ayie
Yes, I appreciate my life, my education, and my status of being lucky. But I'm just off the hook today and doesn't even want to do a thing. I know I want to do only one thing today and that is to sleep the hell throughout.
I'm sorry baby love if I curse this time. I really can't help it.. :(
-Ayie
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Hess' first
It's Hess here,nakkigamit lng ng account ng baby ko since I don't have one and it's my first post. :D Please bear with me 'coz I really don't know where to start.
Hmm. I'm more like a scribble type person. Sorry kung d ninyo maiintindihan ang pinagttype ko dito. hahaha. xD
So here it goes.
Hmmm. Since this is my first, I'll start-off with how my Oct. 3, 2009 started.
It's about 12.40am in the morning when I woke-up by my PC ringing *my by was calling me thru skype*. As fast as I can, I answered it then went back to bed 'coz there's some stuff on chair which I can't remember where did it came from. xD Anyway, as far as I can remember, my by was telling me that she was waken-up by her pamangkin. She was planning to get-up at 10am but instead she woke-up at 6am. Then after that I fell asleep. Im sorry by, 10pm+ na ako natulog e, bigat pa ng ulo ko that time. >.<
It's exactly 5.58am when I woke-up again, 2mins earlier than my alarm clock. lol. haha. Just, just as I cleared and sat on my pc chair, by called to wake me up, but hey Im up now :D. Nauna pa nga ako sa alarm ko e. xD
Anyway, goin to work. Pif, buti pa nagcommute nlng ako, may ksma plng sermon ung paghatid sakin e. haha. It's not that serious anyway. I arrived at work a bit late but it's ok. Pagkadating ko dun tama-tama nsa changing room padin yung surgeon, so same kami late!. haha. :P Just 3 cases for today, 1 hip resurfacing, 1 hip replacement and 1 injection. And mind you, the surgeon for the day was the infamous Mr. Treacey - designed the Birmingham MMT Hip set, operates on 8 diff euro countries, doin an average of 6-8 hip replacement per day, multi-millionare and has a private jet - who does the replacements under an hour which other surgeon does it in 3-4hrs. I was just chilling and taking it easy 'coz there's no work to do. Finally! Lunch break, nyak ala ako baon dala kasi 1pm kami uuwi. I just sat down for almost an hour reading the Daily Mail and texting by (hehe) then went home.
Goin' home. Naalala ko, nabanggit sakin ni Xy kanina may tumawag daw sa landline kahapon and was looking for me. I thought it was the Specs Savers so I decided na puntahan nlng since it's so early pa and I've got nothing to do. To my surprise, nakuha ko na ung 2nd pair ng glasses ko. Then I decided na daan nlng ng grocery to get some lunch. erk the que was too long. kaya wag nlng. x.x
When I got home, papa was telling me about Samantha's bday party, I said I won't go 'coz I don't feel like it. He was insisting. I am a bit pissed that time. So I stayed at home and they went off. It was about 7pm when I started to write this blog when my phone rang. It's papa, he said he's going to pick-up mama and me go straight to the party. Erk! How many times do I have to say that I won't!. Pero napilitan narin ako kasi alang pagkain dito. Eto ako ngaun kakauwi lng medyo masakit ang ulo because of the loud music. I think goin to bed now. I just want my baby and my bed. Ayaw ko nang lumabas ng bahay bukas at ako'y TINATAMAD. Wag na wag nila akong ayawin lumabas bukas at d nila ako mapapalabas ng bahay!. *bow*
Sorry, next time I'll post a more sensible one. It's just that I'm annoyed tonight.
-Hess
Hmm. I'm more like a scribble type person. Sorry kung d ninyo maiintindihan ang pinagttype ko dito. hahaha. xD
So here it goes.
Hmmm. Since this is my first, I'll start-off with how my Oct. 3, 2009 started.
It's about 12.40am in the morning when I woke-up by my PC ringing *my by was calling me thru skype*. As fast as I can, I answered it then went back to bed 'coz there's some stuff on chair which I can't remember where did it came from. xD Anyway, as far as I can remember, my by was telling me that she was waken-up by her pamangkin. She was planning to get-up at 10am but instead she woke-up at 6am. Then after that I fell asleep. Im sorry by, 10pm+ na ako natulog e, bigat pa ng ulo ko that time. >.<
It's exactly 5.58am when I woke-up again, 2mins earlier than my alarm clock. lol. haha. Just, just as I cleared and sat on my pc chair, by called to wake me up, but hey Im up now :D. Nauna pa nga ako sa alarm ko e. xD
Anyway, goin to work. Pif, buti pa nagcommute nlng ako, may ksma plng sermon ung paghatid sakin e. haha. It's not that serious anyway. I arrived at work a bit late but it's ok. Pagkadating ko dun tama-tama nsa changing room padin yung surgeon, so same kami late!. haha. :P Just 3 cases for today, 1 hip resurfacing, 1 hip replacement and 1 injection. And mind you, the surgeon for the day was the infamous Mr. Treacey - designed the Birmingham MMT Hip set, operates on 8 diff euro countries, doin an average of 6-8 hip replacement per day, multi-millionare and has a private jet - who does the replacements under an hour which other surgeon does it in 3-4hrs. I was just chilling and taking it easy 'coz there's no work to do. Finally! Lunch break, nyak ala ako baon dala kasi 1pm kami uuwi. I just sat down for almost an hour reading the Daily Mail and texting by (hehe) then went home.
Goin' home. Naalala ko, nabanggit sakin ni Xy kanina may tumawag daw sa landline kahapon and was looking for me. I thought it was the Specs Savers so I decided na puntahan nlng since it's so early pa and I've got nothing to do. To my surprise, nakuha ko na ung 2nd pair ng glasses ko. Then I decided na daan nlng ng grocery to get some lunch. erk the que was too long. kaya wag nlng. x.x
When I got home, papa was telling me about Samantha's bday party, I said I won't go 'coz I don't feel like it. He was insisting. I am a bit pissed that time. So I stayed at home and they went off. It was about 7pm when I started to write this blog when my phone rang. It's papa, he said he's going to pick-up mama and me go straight to the party. Erk! How many times do I have to say that I won't!. Pero napilitan narin ako kasi alang pagkain dito. Eto ako ngaun kakauwi lng medyo masakit ang ulo because of the loud music. I think goin to bed now. I just want my baby and my bed. Ayaw ko nang lumabas ng bahay bukas at ako'y TINATAMAD. Wag na wag nila akong ayawin lumabas bukas at d nila ako mapapalabas ng bahay!. *bow*
Sorry, next time I'll post a more sensible one. It's just that I'm annoyed tonight.
-Hess
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Reminiscing the Highschool Days..
As i was cleaning my room way back then, I was able to get a grasp of copies of poems. Poems, I had done way back during high school days. High time to post and share them here.
* My Love *
Dramatic it has been
Everybody thought you love me
Surely an adoring guy I had ever seen
One I waited so long for
I love you unconditionally
Hence, you broke my heart
Into a thousand pieces
Again, longing for those warm kisses
The crescent moon
Having a glimpse of my sorrows
Crystal tears slowly drop by
And time seemed to stop
Scent of moonlight flowers
Embrace me with loneliness
As heaven's tears showers
Me, the one left alone.
The sun's rays melt the snow
Just like the pain
Which melts my love now
Yet bitter memories remain
So long my love
My eternal rhapsody
Such sweet rhythm and melody
That once ruled my life.
~ The others will be posted when I start to feel enthusiasm in doing so. Hahaha! ~
* My Love *
Dramatic it has been
Everybody thought you love me
Surely an adoring guy I had ever seen
One I waited so long for
I love you unconditionally
Hence, you broke my heart
Into a thousand pieces
Again, longing for those warm kisses
The crescent moon
Having a glimpse of my sorrows
Crystal tears slowly drop by
And time seemed to stop
Scent of moonlight flowers
Embrace me with loneliness
As heaven's tears showers
Me, the one left alone.
The sun's rays melt the snow
Just like the pain
Which melts my love now
Yet bitter memories remain
So long my love
My eternal rhapsody
Such sweet rhythm and melody
That once ruled my life.
~ The others will be posted when I start to feel enthusiasm in doing so. Hahaha! ~
Rage of my Mind *
Okay fine! So I am here again. Staring in this little piece of technology called Computer and stating my mind. But who cares right?! Geez, I am irritated yesterday and up to this very moment! Why? I tell you why..
I became a friend to a certain person for many years now. He has been my schoolmate during my college days here in Cavite. Our friendship started through the means of an online game known as "Ragnarok". I admit to myself I am addicted to it. I got to know a lot of friends through that and learned a lot. I even met my beloved darling through that. Anyway, back to the topic, I was the last to know that my so-called friend was having an affair to another guy. Well obviously, it is a bisexual affair. It is rampant during this days. Geez, He didn't hear a thing from me when I was the last to know. I didn't ranted. Why should I? I am his friend to understand him, not to criticize him!
The day before yesterday, I humbly asked him if he would like to join a noble act in helping the people affected by typhoon Ondoy on Wednesday. But he said this;
"SpongeBok .: sa wed may lakad me
SpongeBok .: sa thur start po ng OJT ko
SpongeBok .: sa thur try ko pag pumayag ung manager ko"
I said okay when he said this. For I don't want to be a cause of argument between the two of them. Geez! I don't want to see him sad and depressed due to a pitiful quarrel and I was the one who caused it. >.< Who wouldn't get annoyed right?
As the day was going to start yesterday, I was awaken by a beep of my cellphone signaling me that somebody was kind enough to text me?! For crying out loud! It was only 5 in th morning during that time. I didn't bothered to read it. Since I was awake then, I decided to go straight to the computer and talk to my boyfriend. I remembered to read messages on my cellphone at around 6 or 7am. Don't expect me to remember, ay?
So as I read the text I was puzzled, what was it all about? He said that his boyfriend allowed him to go with me. It was as if "utang na loob" of mine that he was coming. So I corrected him about some things, but instead he said that;
"naiinis na ako sayo dahil sa sobrang arte mo.."
a line like that was said to me.Hell what did I do now, so I explained to him the things that he said. But no, he even said that his efforts? What efforts? In everything he had done for our friendship, I am very much thankful. But in every friendship, each person comes to a point that he/she can do something wrong. That is when the word apology steps in. There is no such thing like bringing up how much effort you had done, what do you think of friendship is?! A kind of investment where you can gain such interest in the end?! Or a process where you are expecting something in return when you gave some effort in to it? I really don't think so.
Remember this, I treated you like a true friend. My treatment to you was no other like to my other friends, everybody was treated as they must be. So don't give me a bullshit about your so-called efforts. Damn it! What a pain in the ass you had changed to. You son of *****..
- Well saying this has helped me to make me breath better. You made me mad and realize a lot of things. Haha! You make me laugh. What comfort sharing this had made me feel. ^_^
I became a friend to a certain person for many years now. He has been my schoolmate during my college days here in Cavite. Our friendship started through the means of an online game known as "Ragnarok". I admit to myself I am addicted to it. I got to know a lot of friends through that and learned a lot. I even met my beloved darling through that. Anyway, back to the topic, I was the last to know that my so-called friend was having an affair to another guy. Well obviously, it is a bisexual affair. It is rampant during this days. Geez, He didn't hear a thing from me when I was the last to know. I didn't ranted. Why should I? I am his friend to understand him, not to criticize him!
The day before yesterday, I humbly asked him if he would like to join a noble act in helping the people affected by typhoon Ondoy on Wednesday. But he said this;
"SpongeBok .: sa wed may lakad me
SpongeBok .: sa thur start po ng OJT ko
SpongeBok .: sa thur try ko pag pumayag ung manager ko"
I said okay when he said this. For I don't want to be a cause of argument between the two of them. Geez! I don't want to see him sad and depressed due to a pitiful quarrel and I was the one who caused it. >.< Who wouldn't get annoyed right?
As the day was going to start yesterday, I was awaken by a beep of my cellphone signaling me that somebody was kind enough to text me?! For crying out loud! It was only 5 in th morning during that time. I didn't bothered to read it. Since I was awake then, I decided to go straight to the computer and talk to my boyfriend. I remembered to read messages on my cellphone at around 6 or 7am. Don't expect me to remember, ay?
So as I read the text I was puzzled, what was it all about? He said that his boyfriend allowed him to go with me. It was as if "utang na loob" of mine that he was coming. So I corrected him about some things, but instead he said that;
"naiinis na ako sayo dahil sa sobrang arte mo.."
a line like that was said to me.Hell what did I do now, so I explained to him the things that he said. But no, he even said that his efforts? What efforts? In everything he had done for our friendship, I am very much thankful. But in every friendship, each person comes to a point that he/she can do something wrong. That is when the word apology steps in. There is no such thing like bringing up how much effort you had done, what do you think of friendship is?! A kind of investment where you can gain such interest in the end?! Or a process where you are expecting something in return when you gave some effort in to it? I really don't think so.
Remember this, I treated you like a true friend. My treatment to you was no other like to my other friends, everybody was treated as they must be. So don't give me a bullshit about your so-called efforts. Damn it! What a pain in the ass you had changed to. You son of *****..
- Well saying this has helped me to make me breath better. You made me mad and realize a lot of things. Haha! You make me laugh. What comfort sharing this had made me feel. ^_^
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