Somebody

For a dreamy girl like me
I had wished for someone
Somebody whom can be there
Even there won’t be light
But will guide me as promised.
Somebody whom will teach me
Of which is wrong and right
Somebody whom will accept me
My strengths and weaknesses
My dilemmas and happiness
My stupidity and dreams
As a person that is me
Not as a person he wants me to be.
Somebody whom I can rely on
Through thick or thin
Whether am in hell or in a bin.
Somebody... just somebody
Maybe am asking for too much
To ask for such
But I just want somebody
Somebody whom I can call mine
Somebody whom will never leave
Somebody whose smile never wades
Even in times of trouble
Just that somebody.
Maybe not perfect and ideal
But whom I can really call mine.

Here in my heart

It has been a long time
Still waiting for that same rhyme
When you were always there
To wipe away my tears
To take away my fears
To make me smile when am down
How I longed for your warmth
The warm person I know
The one who never lost faith
Never gave up until now
It may not be said
But you will always be here
Where to? You may ask.
Here in a place
Where you always are
And forever you’ll not fade
Coz in my heart
You will always be.

Real Friends

Friendship... such a strong word. Ohh! How I wish all the people we meet can be just honest and true. Somehow, things are not always how we want them to be. The people we treat in the most endearing way may not be actually what they really are. How enchanting and decieving words can be. It twists our minds and hearts yet we will never have enough evidences nor knowledge on how things work until we come to a point that we learn the heard way.
Finding real friends is a hard task. Because we really can’t tell what is in the mind of other individuals. Somehow, you might wish that things are to be kept simple and that you can read the minds of other people. Yet, things are meant to be like that and all we can do is to accept, adopt and learn from it. Because in this cycle called LIFE, we always don’t get what we want and the only thing we must do is remain strong and be brave enough to face everything that lies ahead of us.

Random Thoughts

Somehow things are not always how they seem. I had never actually thought of this. I guess I was so busy trying to make myself grow. To eager to grow up, forgetting how it is to enjoy my youth; my life. I had been too focused in trying to adopt to things and to people I know that is way out of my league. I had never learned how foolishly I had been acting these past few months that I ended up losing the "Ayie" that everybody knew. Subconciously, I am pushing myself to the limit, reaching to the extent that I don't know myself anymore. The person I see in the mirror now is not me anymore. For sometime, maybe or just maybe it is high time that I look and search for the "Me" that I had lost. For the "Me" that she was before she got hooked to the charm of another person. Maybe that is what I need.

I might had been actually fooling myself, if I try to much to adopt to the way of others, this doesn't necessarily mean I am already like them. I stand corrected by James. I am still a kid whom must learn a lot of things and only time can take its toll to teach me what I must learn and develop me to a better person. Trying to fit in may not be a bad idea, but I guess being done excessively is bad. It only shows that I am not being the person I am to be. I could no longer continue this foolishness I am doing, coz if I do, I might end up losing myself completely and continuously break my heart. After all, there are many things still ahead of me; tears, smiles, opportunities, and etc, I might as well not rush everything. Everything has there right place and moment for them to happen.