I don’t know what you are to feel if you are to be in my place now. Honestly, I would have even wondered what you would do if you were in my shoes. I am my mother’s daughter. A girl born under a very complicated family status. Currently, I am at an age where most individuals ought to enjoy themselves more in the limelight of limits. But it’s not the case with me.
LOL, I am actually in a family where in you would actually feel crappy. Oh come on, we are not that rich family, nor to be considered as average. Geez, if it weren’t for my aunt’s good will, I won’t be able to study in college.
Long ago, as a child I was quite proud to say who was my father and what was he like. However, every changed since that day. Today, I say either that my father is dead or that he already left us, or he has already another family and doesn’t give a damn about us anymore. But honestly, I wish it was the first choice, I may sound as awful as I can be, I really hope that he dies. Not only him, but also his mistress and their sons. You see, my father has another family. It would have been good if the other woman was better than my mom, but damn it all she is nothing but a bitch. The woman used to work for us as a maid and purposely tempted my father. Lmao. Wearing skimpy shorts and such which eventually ended on being impregnated.
Disgust floods my thoughts as a child during those times. Geez, my mom looks hell better than that bitch. So okay, my philanderer dad forcedly made us accept the fact that he has now another family. How dare him to make my mom take care of those children. You read it right, CHILDREN!! Now, they have 3 children, and God knows where they came from. I am saying everything here because I really can’t bear it anymore. From that day on, I feel bad and shattered. I came to a point of enveloping myself in utmost hatred and anger. I found myself in a rebellious state that I neglected my studies. Furthermore, it only reached that point. I was careful enough not to risk my future into something worse.
Anger worsens as time passes by, who wouldn’t right? Having to see your mother being hurt by emotional and physical torture. My mother is the only one that supports my basic needs you see. I bet you would do things worse if you see your mother maltreated that way. Then again, that man actually says that I must respect him?! You have got to be kidding right?! Even though I was raised and came from that man, it doesn’t necessarily mean that I was meant to fake respect, trust and love. I dunno for you guys, but really now, those 3 things for me are meant to be earned and not demanded for. I don’t have any obligations anymore to that asshole since the day that he did that to my mother.
Let me clarify this, every single penny that I have comes from my mother. It’s all from the blood and sweat of my mother. So that asshole doesn’t have a right to say how a stupid bitch I can be. He can rant all he wants but I won’t even budge in every rant he has to say. Even if he is to die, I wouldn’t even shed a tear to for him. That is the person that he made me to be. I will wait for the day patiently that I would be able to see him in his deathbed. This is the most heartless wish I certain have.
Talk about having bad luck in life. LOL.
