Somehow things are not always how they seem. I had never actually thought of this. I guess I was so busy trying to make myself grow. To eager to grow up, forgetting how it is to enjoy my youth; my life. I had been too focused in trying to adopt to things and to people I know that is way out of my league. I had never learned how foolishly I had been acting these past few months that I ended up losing the "Ayie" that everybody knew. Subconciously, I am pushing myself to the limit, reaching to the extent that I don't know myself anymore. The person I see in the mirror now is not me anymore. For sometime, maybe or just maybe it is high time that I look and search for the "Me" that I had lost. For the "Me" that she was before she got hooked to the charm of another person. Maybe that is what I need.
I might had been actually fooling myself, if I try to much to adopt to the way of others, this doesn't necessarily mean I am already like them. I stand corrected by James. I am still a kid whom must learn a lot of things and only time can take its toll to teach me what I must learn and develop me to a better person. Trying to fit in may not be a bad idea, but I guess being done excessively is bad. It only shows that I am not being the person I am to be. I could no longer continue this foolishness I am doing, coz if I do, I might end up losing myself completely and continuously break my heart. After all, there are many things still ahead of me; tears, smiles, opportunities, and etc, I might as well not rush everything. Everything has there right place and moment for them to happen.
